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Cuti Raya Korban 2026!

Saturday, May 30, 2026

 My problem is:


I always think to much on other people feelings. Why did I do that? Why did I say that? What does they think of me? Am I overboard? Am I not supposed to be this & that. Am I right? Am I wrong?.... 



Woahhhhhh. I wrote this back in 2021....What did happened back then? It's currently 10:36 pm on 30th May 2026. Out of boredom... here I am. Randomly logged onto my blogger account which I used to adored so so so much. Found this old draft post and decided to published this post cuz this girl is still dealing with the same issues... needed some help but help have not come yet since then. So survive sendiri jelah...

Life update as of today.. I am reaching sweet thirty soon! Still by myself in this world. Nahhh, I still have my family Alhamdulilah! and Alhamdulilah again! currently living through a previous dua of mine which to stay sane over the upcoming upcoming Ujian Dunia. Still single, alhamdulilah Allah is protecting me from something that I may not be able to bare. Although deeeeeep down, I do felt a bit lonely and envy(in a good way) to watch my friends getting married, having babies and (literally) have someone to shared their joy, sadness, excitement, whatever mood of the day with. A.k.a their partners/husband. Eh yasmin! Allah kan ada. Yes Allah ada. But YTJT. Your not human enough if you menidakkan keperluan itu.

Oooooohh! My brother got married a few months ago.. They got married in December last year... so its been 5? 6 months? Whatever it is!! I am about to become Maklong!!! hmm Maklong does sound old.. should I call myself Makyong? Or Kakyong? Ibuyong? Mama? Mamayong!? Definitely need to do some research on a cute kata nama diri to address myself ahahahah 

Work update? mmmmmm still struggling to adapt with the management a.k.a bosses even after almost 3 years mencari rezeki disini. But Wallahi! I love my teammates in my current company! Dan ini membahayakan sebab... somehow this relationship between my teammates... buatkan saya ada "Attachment Issues" I need them in many ways? I need them together with me, in order to made me feel alive during office hour. a.k.a to stay sane. I need them to be together with me.... gila kan? It's like, they've become my safe haven. Petanda kena cari kerja baru? 

But Wallahi, I used to make doa untuk dapat rakan sekerja, teammates yang begini dan begitu. And Allah bagi! Ya Allah. What is happening to me? Jika ini baik untukku, baikkan dan tenangkan situasi ini untukku. Jika tidak, tenangkan aku dan  bantu aku untuk menjauhi dari kesenangan itu. 

"But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not." [1]


See you soon Yasmin!

It took you almost half & hour + to write again phewhhh. Congratulations you did it! You break the plateau insyaallah 

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